I started a poem late in 1999. I wrote as a way to express what was inside me. It was a bit of a dark time in my life. Though it didn’t look like it in my external world, it certainly was in my internal world. I know now that I wasn’t alone in my experience. It was a potent and transformational time on the planet. The darkness I was experiencing was the shadow within. Looking back from where I am now, so much more about that time is clear. There was a balancing that was at play within me. I was beginning to know my shadow self. One of the books that helped me understand this was The Dark Side of the Light Chasers, by Debbie Ford.
“Your life will be transformed when you make peace with your shadow. The caterpillar will become a breathtakingly beautiful butterfly. You will no longer have to pretend to be someone you’re not. You will no longer have to prove you’re good enough. When you embrace your shadow you will no longer have to life in fear. Find the gifts of your shadow and you will finally revel in all the glory of your true self. Then you will have the freedom to create the life you have always desired.”
― Debbie Ford
Recently I felt a nudge to take a look at my old writings, specifically the one called The Unzipping. Within minutes I had sharpened it, added clarity to this piece of me, my expression from long ago. I discovered deeper meanings, added layers, a stronger and more certain stance. The second nudge I got was to share it with you, so here it is. As I do, I’m wondering…
Do you remember what was happening in your life at that time? Do these words about my experience resonate at all for you? In dark times, did you have a friend who could help you to see?
By Jessica L. Sackett
This coat of doubt and shame is heavy, indeed
A release from it I am in need.
The glow from my light within
Is hidden by this woolen skin.
It’s dark, like the shadow I cast
For years, walking with me, it has last.
Along you came, I quickly recognized
A thick, foggy veil shades my weary eyes.
Straight as an arrow, my thoughts you question
Leaving a distinct and correct impression.
How I see my Self, complex and mistaken
Your thoughtful solution I have undertaken.
The answer so simple, spoken with care
Simply unzip the prison you wear.
Your words ring true, clear as a bell
Unleashing me, instantly, from my contrived hell.
Now my heart is light, a heavy load lifted
My mind has cleared, my soul has shifted.
This coat of shame transforms to ash
To no one else will I pass.
To you, honor and reverence is my aim
For showing me how to cease my sentence of pain.